Grief and Loss

 The past year has been one of the toughest.... Last October 2021 my 47 year old brother was diagnosed with Lung Cancer he won his battle on August 18th, 2022 and went to be with the Lord. My parents had six children all of us girls except for my brother who was 5 years younger than me.  I cannot even tell you how hard this has been. I have had such sadness and questions on why God never heard any of my prayers... In the midst of my grief I have struggled on why I am still here? I still homeschool my children, I still have four left in school, two of my kids are in college and two have left the nest and started their own families. Life is strange sometimes to look at my brother you would think he was a tough guy, however he was the most Godly man I have ever known (reminds me of Job in the Bible) and kind to everyone his death has not only left a huge void in me but anyone he came in contact with. I guess it seems as though I am just rambling, I just needed to write it down on how I have been feeling with grief, loss, life and why things are this way. To those of you who are going through grief too, I pray for you, I pray for your healing and understanding of why things are the way they are. As for me, I am forever changed by the loss of my brother and am still trying to find a new normal for me with his death I had stopped filming YouTube, blogging and selling doterra oils, I do not know if or when I will ever go back to those things as I am still trying to figure what life has in store for me and what direction I need to go.... Thank you for all those who have been following me on here and YouTube @ Michelles Large Family Living..

Blessings,

Michelle 

In Memory of my brother

Lloyd W. Williams

3/25/1975-8/18/2022